Beyond the Blues

The holidays are finally behind us, and life is starting to get back to normal. Business at the store has slowed down; I have a week off to try and put my every day life back together. The baby's new toys and clothes are getting properly put away, we returned the items that didn't fit and/or were doubles, so the bags and boxes that were taking up precious space have disappeared. When you only have two rooms to call your own, open space is vital. Physically and mentally.

Things between Bruce and I have been good. It was really strenuous between us for a while - there were all kinds of issues that were bringing us down. It was heightened by the fact that holidays = family time. Now we feel more like ourselves. We try to ignore the drama and focus on what's important. We spend a lot of time as just us three.

Bruce made me a CD shortly after we moved in here, full of meaningful songs meant to get me through the hard times that were sure to come.  These past few months have indeed been a struggle.  There were moments when neither of us felt we could see the other side of this - the day we have our own place and get our life back.  It seemed as if the foundation we have been building these years as a couple could be shattered.  We've each said, more than once, "I don't know if I can keep doing this."

However, we both know deep down that we are the other's teammate.  Bruce may not always deal with his feelings well, and I might be too sensitive and stubborn.  But ultimately, we are on the same "side".  All those times I should've just put this song on from the mix CD, sat back, and listened.  Isn't that what the blues is all about? Helping us unwind when the going gets tough.